“As you press on for justice, be sure to move with dignity and discipline, using only the weapon of love. Let no man pull you so low as to hate him. Always avoid violence. If you succumb to the temptation of using violence in your struggle, unborn generations will be the recipients of a long and desolate night of bitterness, and your chief legacy to the future will be an endless reign of meaningless chaos.”
– Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.
Excerpted from The Most Durable Power, a sermon delivered November 6, 1956 in Montgomery, Alabama
From my heart to yours…
My hood feels like it is intensifying; the sirens are constant, the police are everywhere, and the suffering runneth over. All the while the gentrification machines are threatening our right to exist in this physical place.
The Sean Bell case; a ringing alarm to the state of systemic injustice and the very tragic and personal ways in which it manifests. I am experiencing a strong wave of rage, grief and profound sadness as the verdict feels directly connected to a plot that is centuries old. A plot we all participate in.
Food shortages, climate ruin, war…
I have been feeling a lot of anger and despair…
I’m not feeling the love and hope of the Obama experience. Long gone is the glow of the race speech.
How to reconnect to the source to provide fuel for potential transformative action?
I noticed today that I move into despair when I try to resist what I am feeling. If I can embrace the sad, mad, anger, whatever and ride it… fully step into it and honour it without judgment… I can move through it. I don’t leave it behind… but it sort of integrates and maybe strengthens. It’s in the struggle to ‘keep it together’ or ‘mature’ or ’spiritual’ when I AM NOT feeling that way where I get caught up. If I resist ‘what is’ in any way… suffering and loss of energy. If I have the courage to just be with what is there, to fully feel what is there, the feelings shed their negative attributes and power over. They transform into healthy energy. Energy that can fuel action. Actions that have the potential to create radical change in our systems and societies.
I want to act… but I’m not feeling the love. I’m not connected to any source. I’m drained. And I’m triggered. How to recenter?
Here’s what I have noticed in myself:
1) Feel my emotions deeply and with self-compassion
2) Share them in all their guts and glory with those dear and trusted
~ somewhere in that process a shift occurs and I am liberated from the despair. I can find love authentically now that I have honoured and integrated the pain and rage ~
3) Brainstorm my actions - what I am committed to doing? - what can I let go?
4) Focus and define clear action steps forward
thanks for being there breathing your breaths.